The Virtual Vigil: Violated

Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault

"The photos attached are screenshots from the notes section on my phone that I wrote after I was sexuality assaulted. I wrote these thoughts to clear my mind about what had happened."

I was pretending to make myself want it, but I definitely did not. I should have said no but I felt incapable. He seemed dissatisfied and wanted me to do more but I didn't want to. I also told him I only wanted to cuddle. He said he should have brought his Viagra, then got some Diazophen.

Affects of Diazophen:

- difficulty remembering things

- poor coordination or difficulty sleeping

- muscle weakness

I felt violated. I felt guilty. I felt shameful and stupid. I felt sad and annoyed at myself. I felt too overwhelmed to stop or say anything.


'The Virtual Vigil' is a series of perspectives, emotions and poems written in response to the current political climate. As a feminist art collective we want to use our space to empower the voices of those affected by gender based violence. In doing so, we hope to challenge existing narratives and teach men that they have a collective responsibility to speak up and call out inappropriate and violent behaviours. If you would like to take part in our virtual vigil, please feel welcome to email us at

Images by Emily Mort.